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this morning as i was driving to work, i was listening to my "country lovin" playlist.
reader, do you ever get like me...in the sense that you sometimes get into a "lovey dovey" mood? where it's ok to listen to mushy love songs.
singing at the top of your lungs "it's a love story baby just say..YES"
well, as of late, i've been in one of those moods (the past few days or so...)
where i just enjoy thinking of being in love.
it's taken me 23 years to realize that in order for me to be in love with someone, i need to first, love myself.
and guess what, i have come to realize that i really love the person i am today.
perhaps that sounds a little conceded or arrogant, but it's the only way i can describe it.
i spent the other night home alone.
alone.
before (in my freshman college years) being alone meant you were a loser.
that you had no friends, no plans, and therefore, you were a lime-a-loser (thanks, glee).
but being all alone is so refreshing to me now.
it's time to unwind, to do things for me, to read a good book, to meditate and just think.
i guess, what i'm trying to say, is that for the first time in a long time, i've come to the realization that i need to just have patience with myself, that i need to truly love being alone, that i need to appreciate myself before i can love someone else.
and i am happy to say, that i am on that road.
i had the 'ah-ha' moment.
my life isn't perfect, but it's never going to be.
life doesn't usually pan out or go the way you want it to.
God has a better plan for you.
He knows the best thing for you.
in my scripture study last night, i read this verse:
"But the Lord knoweth all things from the beginning; wherefore, he prepareth a way to accomplish all his works among the children of men; for behold, he hath all power unto the fulfilling of all his words. And thus it is. Amen." (1 Nephi 9:6)
and i realized (again) that that's all i need to know. that God "knoweth all things from the beginning" and that He knows my life is going to pan out the way He intends it to, because He knows better than me. He knows better than me what is going to be best for me. He knows what I need to learn. He knows that even though i might complain about not being this or not having that...that in the end, it'll all be the way it needs to be.
i just had to get that thought out tonight to share my feelings.
i am seriously so blessed.
i am so thankful for the life i've been granted.
for the breath that God grants to me daily.
i am nothing without God.
"two men can do anything, as long as one of them is the Lord" (Neil L. Andersen)
i am a firm believer in that.
i can do ANYTHING as long as i keep the Lord in my life.
life is truly a gift and is so wonderful, my dears.
i am so thankful for another day to be alive.
to be able to learn, to grow, and to share the love of the Lord with others.
i have a long ways to go, but i am happy with the path i am on.
and i really feel like i've been given this time to become a better person so that one day in the future, i can be the best wife/mother/friend/daughter/sister i can be.



11 comments:
Wow, so very heartfelt and true.
xo Shane
i LOVE this, my friend. such beautiful thoughts. we are truly nothing, not even a speck of sand, without the love of the Savior.
What a great post. I was having the same feeling today driving into work {after I got off my unplowed road, of course!}!! What a great day to love oneself! :) And isn't it great that God loves us so much He gives us room to grow and improve? And make mistakes. And He never ever turns away! :)
Have a great day!
Maggie B.
www.magslifetoday.blogspot.com
"Finding Myself"
Love this.
This was such a good, sweet, and heartfelt post! Thanks for sharing this!
You so deserve the best when you do fall in love, mah dear!
It is so true!!! We all have our moments- but why drag someone down when you are down on yourself?
LOVE this Ash! You are SO cute! You will meet an AWESOME guy! Maybe Kinley? :) HA! Glad you realized how amazing you are, cause you are! :)
I agree with Savannah! :) 100%
Favorite post by you EVER! I am so happy for you- it is so true that you have to love yourself first!
Seriously you are awesome! I totally agree with this! Once you're content with yourself, you can be YOU and allow someone to fall in love with you. When I look back, sometimes I was so dumb to try to "match" myself to the guy I was dating. With Clint, me being able to be ME I think was vital in where we are at today! And seriously, FOREVER is way too long to settle. You'll be so glad you didn't end up with these hooligans you've dated so far! :) You deserve to be treated like a princess!
So refreshing to be reminded that it's okay to be alone! Thanks for the reminder! I needed to remember that, especially tonight.
SUCH an unending "lesson" to learn...God will keep growing you and keep drawing you near Ashley...just when He shows you a bit, He shows you so much more. You are so wise to be such a seeker of Him, and that is all He wants! God is our husband, friend, mother, father and friend!!!
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