plantar fasciitis

what the?

"Plantar fasciitis is irritation and swelling of the thick tissue on the bottom of the foot"

so, i recently discovered to my horror, that i am extremely flat-footed.  i have been working out a ton and strained my foot.  i thought it was no big deal, just some swelling/pain. right?

wrong.  the doc told me i gotsta see a specialist.  i might be having surgery...but until then I get to wear this lovely boot.

fashionable, eh?

total {eclipse} of the heart

it's that time of year again.  the time when all the women leave their familes for the night.  when all hell breaks loose as women of all ages run to their nearest theater to check out these HOT fictional characters on the screen.  in the ever-so-lovely twilight series.  (if my brother knew I went to the midnight showing he would disown me...)  good thing he's in Lithuania.... :)

Bev and I at Texas Roadhouse

Me with my Jacob. cup that is.

ash and I before we left

gotta take a full body shot.  we're cool like that

chels, ash and I at the gateway.  we look GREAT

comedy sportz

I love improv comedy.
comedy sportz is about the only improv place in the valley (that I know of)
so we got a bunch of friends together and went and enjoyed ourselves!

I love my friendsies!  We are so hot, huh?!

cp girl

cp girl.
do you even know what that means?
well, if you were a SCRAPBOOKER you would!
cp girl
c=crate p=paper girl=girl

I am a CP GIRL.  That's right, I work for the best scrapbook paper company ever.  The worst part?  I don't scrapbook.  what am I thinking?!  I would have a blast with the newest collections too!
Restoration, Snow Day, and School Spirit.

Oh well, I'll just have fun working in the warehouse, for now!

http://www.crate.typepad.com/ is our awesome blog!  We are always giving away fabulous prizes too for all you scrappies out there!

music is my boyfriend {kinda}

I am in love.

yes, with music.

i love john mayer.

duh.

everyone who knows me knows this about me.

i love his lyrics.

he speaks to my soul. 

i love the emotions he portrays in his music.

plus, he is MEGA FINE.  gorgeous (in a manish way). darling. hot. sexy. did I mention how good looking he is?

ok, ok, i'm done.  I just decided to post some of my favorite lines from some of my favorite songs.....enjoy!

"our love was comfortable and so broken in....she's perfect. so flawless. I'm not impressed.  I want you back"   {comfortable}


"i don't remember you lookin any better, but then again i don't remember you"  {who says}

"i was made to believe I'd never love somebody else, made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself. Lonely was the song I sang,  til the day you came, showing me another way and all that my love can bring" {half of my heart}




"no I'm not the man I used to be lately, see you met me at an interesting time.  and if my past is any sign of your future, it shouldn't long before i let you inside" {i don't trust myself with loving you}



"i was a killer was the best they'd ever seen, I'd steal your heart before you ever heard a thing - i'm an assassin and i had a job to do - little did i know that girl was an assassin too"  {assassin}



"pain throws your heart to the ground. love turns the whole thing around. no it won't all go the way it should, but i know the heart of life is good" {the heart of life}



"i don't belong to anyone, nobody belongs to me"  {perfectly lonely}


"half of my heart's got a grip on the situation, half of my heart takes time, half of my hearts got the right mind to tell you that i can't keep lovin you..."  {half of my heart}



"how dare you say it's nothing to me, baby you're the only light i ever saw" {slow dancing in a burning room}



"i'm not running and i'm not scared.  i am waiting and well prepared.  i'm in the war of my life" {war of my life}



"one pair of candy lips and you're bubblegum tongue" {your body is a wonderland}


"she leaves her toothbrush at my place, as if I had the extra space" {city love}



"who do you love. me or the thought of me?"  {i don't trust myself with loving you}


"I can't be her angel now, you know it's not my place to hold her down.  And it's hard for me to take a stand, when I would take her anyway I can" {neon}



"who says i can't get stoned turn off the lights and the telephone. me in my house alone. who says i cant get stoned.  who says i can't be free from all of the things that i used to be.  who says I can't be free?"  {who says}


"Down to the wire, I wanted water but i'll walk through the fire if this is what it takes to take me even higher.  then i'll come through like i do when the world keeps testing me, testing me"  {vultures}



"friends, lovers or nothing.  there can only be one. friends lovers or nothing, there'll never be an inbetween so give it up"  {friends, lovers or nothing}


"nothing to do, nowhere to be, a simple little kind of free. nothing to do, no-one but me.  that's all i need."  {perfectly lonely}

if I ain't got you

love piano songs.
love r&b.
love Alicia.
love this song.

.if I ain't got you.

rubber dams, prophies, toffelmires, oh my!

School is drawing to a fast end.

I feel so overwhelmed. I have a lot of homework I still need to complete before I can go out into my externship. And I just feel like I am going a gazillion million billion miles an hour!!

I am pretty proud though, I must say.  I had to do a x-ray mount pass-off today, and guess what?!  I PASSED!  My teacher was like, "Did you do this all by yourself?!"  I am wondering if she was shocked that I could actually mount x-rays correctly, or if she was impressed...but then she said, "this is beautiful.  It's perfect!  Great job Ashley!"  

Whew, one pass off down....

it's like i love this {pain}

I don't really even know what to say, but I just feel like I need to say something profound.

I don't really know who even reads this thing called, my blog.  I don't really know if anyone does but my family members...but i guess that's ok.

I don't have anything brilliant to say.  I'm just me.  Living my average life.  Living my life the best that i know how.  I am trying my best to be a good person.  To work hard.  Study lots.  Be kind.  Sincere.  Loving.  Generous.  All the while I am trying to find my place in this big world.

I had the opportunity to become closer to a certain someone the past few weeks.  And I think that's why I am feeling the way I do right now.  I feel pain. clarity. joy. anger. fear. depression. happiness. I feel like I am me again.  I feel.

I hate goodbyes.  I hated telling him that I am not capable of giving him my heart.  I hate that my heart is telling me to not let this person in.  I hate that I feel this way. But I know that I must do what makes me happy.  I must be true to me.  "To thine own self be true" (thank you, Shakespeare). 

I know this is just a bunch of mumbo-jumbo rambling, but it's makes me feel better, okay?

It's hard to tell someone goodbye.  To tell them that you can't talk anymore.  That you can't have them in your life.  That its better for you (for selfish reasons) to be alone again.  To tell them they need to take away their humor. their light. their happiness. their jokes. their humor. their personality. their quirks. their kindness. their wisdom. their energy.  it hurts.  I hurt.

I hurt.

It hurts.

I've cried.

I've struggled.

I've prayed.

but I'd rather hurt, because I know that I am still human.  that I am still capable of feeling. capable of letting someone get close to me.  to let someone care about me.  to allow someone to like me.  and that's all that matters.

I'm me, but just a better and wiser version.

Canon Telephoto Zoom Lens FOR SALE

Do you or anyone you know want a new SLR camera lens?!

Well, you're in luck! I am trying to sell a Canon EF 75-300mm f/4-5.6 III Telephoto Zoom Lens

only

$170.00

I bought the lens back in October (2009) for a trip, I pulled it out of the box, took a few shots, and decided I wanted a different lens. It's been sitting in the box since then. It's practically NEVER BEEN USED! I still have the box it came in. The lens is in excellent condition too!

Please please PLEASE spread the word about this!  I need to sell it ASAP!

I would greatly appreciate your help in getting the word out!  THANK YOU my blogging lovies!